Time.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006 !

hello peeps...this is the start of a new week...
i don't feel like going school already....not because i've bad friends..
neither are the lessons bad... but well..
it's only been a month since school started!
what am i thinking? you ppl might ask..
poly's freaking slack.. with a timetable like mine,
i'd be better off like working and earning money..
it's so slack i'm worried...

for those of you who knows me well..
you know i CANNOT study..like come on man..
isaac and slack time never does add up to studying..
it only adds up to playing and more playing and sleeping.
but not now.. i do my work...and i'm surprised at myself
i finish them so quick, there isn't leftovers to pile up,
and this is the first time things like these are happening.
i'm worried. worried that the over slack lifestyle which,
i've always been looking forward to is gonna kill me..
worried that once i get to know my new classmates better,
i wouldn't wanna push myself and work hard already...
only one month with them and we're such a riot already..

i desperately need help...
the only few things that are helping me spend time wisely
is my quiet time and my cca..
but i've gotta be honest, that i haven't really been ernest
in doing my quiet time..
feeling as dry as a desert now.. and that's not good...

-tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cause I can't stand up
and I can't fall down
and I'm somewhere in the middle of this

well I find it hard I always tried to find the sane life
but I don't like the way things are
and I keep falling to my knees
somewhere in the middle of this-

it doesn't feel good knowing that we don't have as much time as before.
keep getting the constant nagging feeling..insecure? maybe...
but definitely still here with you..

8:36 PM
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